Hermit Behavior and other issues

I have this issue....well, lots of issues in fact. But today i will just expand on one. I like to be a hermit. I like to stay home. I like to not go shopping to every store and see everyone. I like to just be alone sometimes and not be bothered by others.
Now, don't get me wrong. I am perfectly happy when someone drops by (i love that) and i love to go on vacations and visit places--next week we have one planned...but for the most part. I like to just stay home.
I have my saturday outing of garage sales and the occasional soccer game for Jerika and practice and such. But really, i like to not go anywhere.
this of course would bring on the other issue of procrastination. I wait forever to go the store for food or anything else. Can i do that tomorrow?--not because of overscheduling myself, just because i don't really like to go anywhere.
i am an outgoing person...when around people that i am out with.
When home, quiet.. a little more reserved, causious, careful. maybe that is all bonkus--i am just on slow mo.
anyways--being around people bouyes me up...keeps the juices flowing...if i didn't have church or garage sales, or quilt groups i would probably sink.
Not that i act really that different around others than with my family...ok maybe just a little bit.
Well, This hermit behavior is a hard one to kick. It is addicting to do. then irritating to not do. get it?
It is an ok issue to have when you sell on ETSY too. You know, hide away.....sew away...send things away. It's all great. But when it comes down to sharing with others, and telling them what you do..in person....that is a whole new thing. I am not comfortable with that. I really don't like to toot my own horn, or convince others that the product i sell is sooooo what they need and must buy. some are great at that...me, not so much.
I guess that is why the blog world is growing. Are we all this way? ---in a way? Do we like to hide behind that screen and keyboard? Are we just strong enough to tell everyone we don't know something that we are proud of ourselves for doing? I am. I do.
The only way around that is to get more exposure right? To just bite the bullet and do something about it. To get out of the comfort of hermit home and to reach beyond ourselves and just 'do it'. Maybe this is the year that i move beyond that uncomfortable zone and reach above the easy branch and pick something a little more challenging....but really satisfying. Personal satisfaction.
I began with slow little stretches that took me to selling things at boutiques.....that was one of the year goals and i still have a few of those to do. I really don't like setting up and looking at people who are looking at my stuff. I am caught in second guessing everything, the product, the price, the appearance. Whatever that i think, they think is wrong....or really it is not.
Life is about stretching right? being just a bit uncomfortable...Right? Going beyond what we think we can handle....right? Taking ourselves to a place we never thought we could be...right? Stepping out of that home boundary and finding a new place to explore---to grow....right?
How many times have i stepped away from opportunities to grow because of my own restrictions...time and scheduling not being one. But just because of me?
I don't have any BIG plans to announce, or Exciting NEWS to speak of....just had to ramble a bit. Just had to speak it, acknowledge it, live it and then maybe accepting it.....only to the point of moving on from it. Maybe, just maybe, to Begin something new. Not new in the sence of scrapping everything and starting over, Closing down what i have done, or turning off what is already on....but just to try out some little stretches and become a bit more flexible to more possibilities.










I am already starting to feel the achy muscles.